'm in no way confident, and I hate it. I'm loud with people who I know (very loud,) but when it comes to new environments, I'm so shy and it's really annoying. I wish I could be the person who can just walk up to someone else and say 'hi' but I just can't.
The thing which is holding me back is my thoughts. My mind just keeps on asking me questions:
What will they think of me?
Is ny outfit nice?
Did I remember to do my hair nicely?
These are all these questions which I know shouldn't matter but to me they always do. The real problem is because of my low self-esteem.
Self-Esteem - Confidence in one's worth or abilities.
I hate the fact that I gave little self-esteem. I wish that I could go out and where something bold, bright and different without wondering weither people will like my outfit or not. I wish I could go to school feeling completely confident about me and my face without thinking if I'll look like all the other pretty girls there.
I wish I had a higher self-esteem.
I wish I had more confidence I myself.
All us young girls are exposed to is seeing these pretty and inspirational women online and then forgetting that most of these women have makeup on. Well I don't now about everyone, but I do. I watch a video wondering how their eyeliner is on fleek and how their skin is perfect all the time and I forget that some of them wearing makeup.
Most of the women I watch on YouTube are all gorgeous and such inspirational women so a majority of them I look up to and they're some of my role models:
Estee Lalonde and even though she's not alive still, Audrey Hepburn.
All these women are gorgeous and then when I think of lil' old me my confidence in my self goes down sooooo much. I think about how their lives are 'sooo perfect' how they're makeup always look flawless. But what I forget is that nobody's perfect, and no-one will every be. Everyone makes mistakes and we all have our flaws. As soon as we learn to embrace and accept them then we can have so much more confidence and self-esteem in ourselves.
I'm still a long way away from feeling the best about myself and having total confidence but I'm working on it. I want to be able to walk out wearing clothes which I wear just because I want to wear then and not because of anyone else. I want to be able to walk out of the house with no makeup on and wondering if my spot looks hideous or not.
'We all have flaws, the only way we can overcome then is by accepting them. '
I try to live by that quote in this best way I can its hard, but we'll all be able to accomplish it someday.
This was quite a different post then my usual beauty or fashion content but I wanted to switch it up a little bit and do something different. I also just wanted to talk to you guys in the hope that if you have little self-esteem that this post may be able to help you. If you've already come over from having little self-esteem then please leave your tips down in the comments to help anyone else.
If you have had little self-esteem, how have you how overcome it?